#teachersarehuman #nofilter .
🔹I am about two weeks behind in grading because seeing how poorly my students do on tests is demoralizing and makes me feel like I'm not doing or can't do my job. The semester ends in 3 weeks.
🔹that being said, I feel like I'm more concerned about how their progress in class will affect their overall education, graduation, and future endeavors - and that breaks my heart.
🔹for the first time in my career, I actually feared that a student might get violent and cause harm to me or others this week. Last week I made my first mandated report.
🔹it took me 8 years of teaching (plus 1 subbing, plus 1 student teaching) to teach *MYSELF* that my own interests and personal time and activities do matter and are important for my own mental health and sense of self-worth.
🔹 I have anxiety, I have depression, I am in therapy, I'm on medication. Sometimes I still feel like it isn't enough.
🔹my best friend in the world is my cat, and while I tell my boyfriend, therapist, and yoga teacher *eVeRyThInG* (probably too much sometimes), I don't actually feel like I have any real friends.
🔹most days, it is VERY HARD to get out of bed and go to work - even though I LOVE my job, my colleagues, and my students. And every day, I CAN NOT WAIT to go home and go to sleep.
🔹I currently meet the technical definition of homeless - we have been removed from our home for mold removal and health and structural concerns. We are currently living in a hotel with about a week's worth of laundry - we are going on week 3 now.
🔹despite everything above, I am in the best place mentally and emotionally that I've been in a very very long time. I love my life, I love my job, I love the experiences I'm having.
Thank you @MissFairchildsMuggles for starting this trend and tag, and all the teachers and school employees who have kept it going.
(And Facebook for throwing it up on my feed 👍)