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Lamming with @ewokessay and @kingb_za today all day #illuminatingshadows

 7 days ago
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Go on... get into your Spotify and follow illuminating shadows. #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #music #band #spotify #hiphop #rap

 7 days ago
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Go on... get into your Spotify and follow illuminating shadows. #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #music #band #spotify #hiphop #rap

 7 days ago
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Massive MASSIVE shout outs to the homies @kingb_za and @rory.s.jacobs for hooking a man UP!!! When it’s on then it’s on and it’s ON 🔥🏆🎙 #illuminatingshadows #illshad #rappidyrap #boombap

 12 days ago
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Massive MASSIVE shout outs to the homies @kingb_za and @rory.s.jacobs for hooking a brother like @ewokessay UP!!! When it’s on then it’s on and it’s ON 🔥🏆🎙 #illuminatingshadows #illshad #rappidyrap #boombap

 12 days ago
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Shout outs to brother Man like @kingb_za for introducing me to this go to @frysfamily polony slice snack, way back in the day. Dude’s been ahead of the plant-based game since all of the hype. We’ve been rocking together for well over thirty of our humyn years and he was literally the first of our crew to show up at a braai with the original Fry’s Family Meat Free sausage. I thought that was pretty hip, then he showed me this. This is like real polony without any of the grossness. I was once a proper polony punter, gimme that with some cheese and bread and I was smiling. Happiness is...👊🏼🌍💚 #veganuary #frysfamily #illuminatingshadows

 20 days ago
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If you haven’t heard it yet, the new #illuminatingshadows single is a sweet salute to 2019, from then to forever. Forward ever, backward never 🌍💚🤘🏼ONE LOVE.

 22 days ago
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If you haven’t heard it yet, the new #illuminatingshadows single is a sweet salute to 2019, from then to forever. Forward ever, backward never 🌍💚🤘🏼

 22 days ago
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If you haven’t heard it yet, the new #illuminatingshadows single is a sweet salute to 2019, from then to forever. Forward ever, backward never 🌍💚🤘🏼

 22 days ago
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 1 month ago
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 1 month ago
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🔥!!NEW SINGLE DATE SET!!🔥 It’s Illshad baby! Our first new single in fucking forever. ELON MUSK 17-12-19... We back. Keep in tune for more info and all🤘🏻 #illshad #illuminatingshadows #single #music #hiphop #elonmusk

 1 month ago
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🔥 BIG NEWS 🔥 NEW MUSIC 🔥 SAVE THE DATE 🔥 It’s finally here, my peoples! The first illuminating shadows single in over ten years: date and details are just a ⬅️ left ⬅️ swipe ⬅️ away Stay tuned for more updates on how you can hear what we’ve been cooking up. This is the first in a series of fresh work. Expect a bit of what you know, a bit of what you expect, a whole bit of somethings new. #illuminatingshadows #hiphop #newmusic

 1 month ago
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 2 months ago
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 2 months ago
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@kingb_za has always had balls. Respect. I also want to credit him with the original beard in the band. #throwbackthursday #illuminatingshadows

 2 months ago
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Best place to be on a rainy Friday is indoors, headed to @sonicstudios031 for some quality time on the microphone. #illuminatingshadows #stillswimming #fridayfeels

 2 months ago
Exploring pareyyyy
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Best place to be on a rainy Friday is indoors, headed to @sonicstudios031 for some quality time on the microphone. #illuminatingshadows #stillswimming #fridayfeels

 2 months ago
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Throwing back 15yrs to BURN, Durban: Could be any other party, right? Look closely though, no smartphones at the original “illshad show”. I see two future @ecrbreakfast deejays, the dude that opened @tacozulu and a couple other young Durbanites on their way to kiff heights. We are illuminating shadows. We are day one, son. 🐟🎤🔥🎤🎣 #poisoncity #durban #031 #illshad #illuminatingshadows

 2 months ago
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Illshad in the ... car. The homie Creamy E the Ewok got me trapped and forced me to do one of these video! Hahaha. Look out for new music from us this month! #illshad #illuminatingshadows #rappityrap #rap #hiphop #emcees #southafrica #verse

 3 months ago
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Creamy E and King B talking that classic trash, in between tryna lock down all sorts of arrangements for the new tunes coming soon. 🇿🇦🐟🔥 #illuminatingshadows #illshad #stillswimming #hiphop #sahiphop #rap

 3 months ago
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Hola InstaJam! I locked down @kingb_za to give you his verse from the new #illuminatingshadows single (watch the stream, soon come). Check it. Happy Wednesday. 🔥🇿🇦🐟 #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming #rap #rappers #sahiphop #hiphop

 3 months ago
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Throw back like a snap back Knicks cap: this verse comes from 2003, vintage #illuminatingshadows from a track called The Prediction. You can check it out plus more original material from way back then over at SoundCloud.com. #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming #sahiphop #hiphop #rap #verse #acapella #throwback

 3 months ago
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Throw back like a snap back Knicks cap: this verse comes from 2003, vintage #illuminatingshadows from a track called The Prediction. You can check it out plus more original material from way back then over at SoundCloud.com. #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming #sahiphop #hiphop #rap #verse #acapella #throwback

 3 months ago
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Good evening, InstaJam. Lemme run some rhymes at you, a taste of the new #illuminatingshadows production, coming soon to a stream near you. 👊🏼🌍🔥🐟 (Shout outs to @danestops for the backdrop and @s43_hometothatbrewingco for the impromptu venue) #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming #acapella #rapverse #rhyming #emcee #hiphop #sahiphop

 3 months ago
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Monday grind mind like whut. Follow @illshadband to stay up to date with the re-ignition of illuminating shadows: King B and Creamy E. Long time in the game, long time remain 👊🏼🔥🐟 #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming

 3 months ago
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...and we’re still swimming. Once again, it’s a full circle cycle back to rocking with the brother @kngbza. Happy weekend y’all, check the video out on the couch. New music drops soon into a stream near you... #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sahiphop #stillswimming #sickfish

 3 months ago
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In 2001 illshad entered the Durban underground with a three track demo. Seek The Sun was one of the first pieces we produced together, 18yrs ago. Before Instagram Facebook and smartphones, this was the music we were making. Check this track and more of our original material, out on our Soundcloud. #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming #seekthesun

 3 months ago
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Whachu see here is an authentic artifact: Durban “Poison City” original hip hop culture, from way back when it was really beginning. This is pre-Facebook pre-Instagram pre-smartphone, back when we still had to do flyer drops at top spots and we had to draw the flyers up ourselves. This is illuminating shadows, underground since day one, and we’re freakin comin back atcha, proper. Stay tuned. Another video drop tomorrow. #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #durbanhiphop #sahiphop #hiphop

 3 months ago
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It’s been a real full circle, me an the homie @kngbza coming around to the studio, together again. @sonicstudios031 has born witness to the re-ignition of the shadow flames. Looking forward to launching the new illuminating shadows out into the ether. Expect what you know plus what has grown in us both. New music, coming soon: illuminating shadows, and we’re still swimming. #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #stillswimming #sahiphop #hiphop

 3 months ago
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I’ve been rocking the planet with brother like @kngbza since 2003, but we’ve known each other since high school, circa 1996. illuminating shadows was our brainchild, born out of our mutual love of hip hop and the microphone check. We started in a small home studio setup at the back of his digs around the corner from DUT, Durban. Those days, pre-smartphone and social media, we were hitting every open mic stage we could find, letting the city know we were in it to win it. It’s 2019 now, we’ve traveled many a road, we’re back in each other’s orbit with our first project together in 10yrs. New music starts dropping in November. #illuminatingshadows #stillswimming #illshad #sickfish #sahiphop #hiphop #independentartist #indyhiphop

 3 months ago
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Moving Towards Myself….My Higher Self⠀ ⠀ I feel it like an excavation process.⠀ Removing the dirt that covers the jewel.⠀ ⠀ Cleaning my house, the house of my psyche⠀ Removing debris, stored in my body⠀ Layer by layer.⠀ ⠀ Tools needed:⠀ The flashlight of consciousness⠀ Courage to feel my way⠀ ⠀ See the masks and⠀ Dance them into lightness.⠀ ⠀ Dig deeper and encounter⠀ The different aspects of the lower self⠀ Bringing each one carefully into focus.⠀ ⠀ Understanding each as a defense mechanism⠀ Adopted by the child⠀ To make sense of the world.⠀ ⠀ Dissolving the childhood wounds and the bonds⠀ That create painful repetition.⠀ ⠀ Reaching the core - the higher self - my heart - my essence⠀ ⠀ Where everything dissolves in love.⠀ And the jewel shines clear and bright. ⠀ ⠀ Amara ⠀ ⠀ #healingenergytools #innertransformation #spiritualawakening #spiritualpath #amarapagano #illuminatingshadows #illumination #innerlight #amarapagano #azulconsciousmovement #pathofazul

 3 months ago
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Let fear dissolve in love. That is what we practice. ⠀ ⠀ #fearlesslife #fearlesslove #lovewins #dancersawakeninglove #azulconsciousmovement #illuminatingshadows

 4 months ago
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Indeed! Boundaries are so very important & seem to be coming up again & again, of late! • • • • • • • • •

 4 months ago
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For the past week or so I have been opening myself to my shadows. For the first time I have consciously been calling them forward instead of distracting them away. ⁣ ⁣ Allowing resistance to grow into voices so loud in my mind that I can hear their arguments, their reasonings for why I should stop. It’s dark in there.. where all the messages are hidden. ⁣ ⁣ I shouldn’t be surprised that they are one-sided or appear to have no basis. However I cannot dismiss them. The truth is, these voices, these beliefs, these arguments are resting inside me for a purpose. They believe they are protecting me, from countless scenarios that may cause pain to my psyche.⁣ ⁣ I believe my next step is slowly addressing the loudest voices. I will treat them with respect as I try to understand their fears, as they could be valid! In my foolhardiness to live avoiding their wisdom, am I causing myself unnecessary injury?⁣ ⁣ I’ll be here ruminating, until we meet again 🍃⁣ ⁣ #forestpagan #shadowwork #illuminatingshadows #mysticism #spiritualgrowth #hedgewitch #forestwitch #greenwitch #darkwitch #darkarts #modernpagan #modernwitch #spidermedicine #witchythings #druid #druidry #messagefromspirit

 5 months ago
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Scorpio full moon. I'm a #lunarscorpio so looking into the blocks that need removal and the shadows that need illuminated. This blue flower full moon is an intense one! #fullmoon #scorpiofullmoon #moonsign #blueflowermoon #illuminatingshadows #goingwithin #moonphases

 8 months ago
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Throwing back HARD: 15yrs when the #SAHipHop industry was in its genesis era, we were opening our set at every gig around town with this number. Some of y’all we’re still being born, don’t lie. Illuminating Shadows is back julle, know the roots so you can appreciate the fresh fruits. #illuminatingshadows #durban #poisoncity #throwback #throwbackthursday

 8 months ago
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“Eff that / we bring phat back to rap / slim cats think they phat? / I’m bringing sagging back” - casual day at work today, have a happy Tuesday. #illuminatingshadows #returnoftheboombap #hiphopdontstop

 9 months ago
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Working on a Saturday, bringing sag back to rap with style Capitano @rory.s.jacobs and @kingb_za. Beats in the background from the forthcoming album, steady plotting the relaunch like only we could do what we do. #illuminatingshadows #stillswimming

 10 months ago
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It’s been about 10 years but it feels like home. Back at work in studio with my brotha Ewok. We told you we weren’t done. illuminating shadows / illshad / the sick fish... back at it. So much fun. We have grown and changed but we still the same. Can’t wait for you all to hear our new material. • 📸: @rory.s.jacobs (you legend, thank you!) • #illuminatingshadows #illshad #hiphop #music #studio #recording #rap #beats #rhymes #emcee #durban #SouthAfrica

 10 months ago
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I was looking to #throwback but I got spat forward to the first #illuminatingshadows studio session in well over 10 years now. Kicking it @sonicstudios031 yesterday with man like @kingb_za was a reminder of just how far we’ve both come on our separate paths as artists. It was also a total reconnecting and recognition of how well we work together when it comes to that ill #boombaphiphop and consistent progression through #beats #rhymes and #life. So happy I’m hash tagging err’thang. Props to @rory.s.jacobs and his camera skills, linking up once more on that dedicated documentation tip. Watch this Listen this Feel this space, my peoples!!!

 10 months ago
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Happy Birthday #Wildstyle -36yrs old today. If you’ve ever nodded your head like your neck already knows, ever rocked out in bboy pose, ran with cans after hours or rocked the mic with super powers, then you know whadditiz. Shout outs to all the underground heads keeping hip hop healthy. Props to the original #WhatKindCrew, Poison City pioneers. Salute from me, Creamy E. #illuminatingshadows #goldenerahiphop #undergroundhiphop

 10 months ago
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Traveling through the darker crevices of the psyche. Skillfully navigating with a courageous and resilient heart. I’ve been here before. No need to fear our shadows. No need to run from the aspects of our mind-body matrix that no longer serve. No need to push away undesirable thoughts or feelings. It only prolongs the process, as they will have to be faced and transmuted sooner or later. . Welcoming the density as it comes. Breath and body are the tools. Heart is the guide. No need to numb, No need to avoid, No need to suppress. You are stronger than you think, You are braver than you think, You are more supported than you think. Ask for help, and it shall come. Courage and willingness will be rewarded. Change starts from within. Trust the process. There’s light at the end of the tunnel. Love is on our side, always. . . (Cont...) . . #lightworker #inneralchemy #sheddinglayers #loveexpansion #naturetherapy #yoga #breath #body #centered #weboflife #soultribe #humanfamily #thefruitfuldarkness #impermanence #thistooshallpass #reflections #illuminatingshadows #studentteacher #alwayslearning #skandasana #shadowyoga #balanceiskey

 11 months ago
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Working some words out. First new single is in production. Listen to this space. #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #poisoncity

 11 months ago
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"It is developing our own capacity for spaciousness within ourselves to allow others to be as they are — that is love. And that doesn’t mean that we don’t have hopes or wishes that things are changed or shifted, but that to come from a place of love is to be in acceptance of what is, even in the face of moving it towards something that is more whole, more just, more spacious for all of us. It’s bigness. It’s allowance. It’s flexibility." . This is a quote from Rev. Kyodo's conversation with Krista Tippet at the podcast, On Being. To listen to the full conversation cut and paste this url in your web-browser: https://bit.ly/akw-onbeing. . -------------. . I've listened to this podcast twice today. A bit of spiritual hygiene. I agree with the statement that love is space and I think this space starts with ourselves. We need to lovingly examine ourselves with the intention of illuminating our shadows in order to integrate them. . By learning how it feels to integrate all aspects of ourselves — even those parts we avoid, hide, and deny — will increase our capacity to accept others just as they are without agenda. . Embodied and illuminated integration is an ongoing adventure that I think of as spiritual hygiene. #illuminatingshadows #revangelKyodowilliams #loveisspace

 11 months ago
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illuminating shadows... this was a lifetime ago but life is coming back around... watch this space... #illshad #illuminatingshadows #hiphop #rap #crew #music

 11 months ago
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😘”We ❤️ illshad!”😘 Go and shoot us with a Like arrow on Facebook, coz that’s where all the new tunes and talking points are going to land. Phat Fact: The name illuminating shadows was decided over a chat room, between @kingb_za (in Taiwan teaching kids English) and mEwok (in Durban in my first year at University studying Media and Communications). A chat room! Remember them? If you don’t know, you’re never gonna know. We pre-mp3 heads got a whole ‘nother outlook on it all, best believe. Have a great day! We ❤️ you too 😘😘😘 #throwbackthursday #boomerang #allcomesaround #fullcircle #stillswimming #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish

 11 months ago
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A little throw back in preparation of going forward! Illuminating Shadows. If you know you know. Watch this space. • #illuminatingshadows #illshad #sickfish #hiphop #rap #southafrica #durban #tbt

 12 months ago
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Throwing back HARD right here, mainly because the brother @kingb_za an’me are back on it like serious like that like. Y’all remember #BLUNTmagazine right? Leading flame in the SA underground scene, this publication put so many artists on the map and kept many a niche in the market. When we hit the stage again it’s going to be everything from the new through to the true school. Go like #illuminatingshadows on FB to see how we re-ignite like “Light a flame in the dark / watch the shadows appear...” #poisoncity #031 #SAhiphop #illuminatingshadows #illshad #OGpoisoncity #longtimecoming #longtimegone #longtimeonit

 12 months ago
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Winter Solstice moon rising over Levine Down Friday 21st Dec 2018 Reflecting the Light of the returning sun.... Still feeling the stillness of the Solstice turning point, wondering what needs/wants to be illuminated in the shadows at this time? Time for hibernating, going deep into the earth, gratitude n appreciation for the seasonal cycles that lead us to greater balance within ourselves.... Time for composting the past years experiences.... #happywintersolstice #solsticemoon #moonrising #solsticemoonrising #Levinedown #illuminatingshadows #[email protected]?

 1 year ago
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Shadow Journa Prompt - If you gave voice to your shadow, what would it say to you? What does it want to say? This is a technique I learned from @raindownwords who offers amazing writing workshops in Vancouver. Gather your journal and some coloured pencils and/or highlighters pens. Before opening your jounal as yourself if you feel ready to hear what your shadow has to say. How does that question land in your body? Does it feel alright? If the answer is no, respect that. Is there something you could offer to feel "yes"? You may need to come back to this exercise another day and that is okay. If you're feeling good about hearing what your shadow has to say then go ahead and open you journal. Go thru your journal and highlight all the words that jump out at you. Circle the words that repeat. On a fresh sheet of paper write all these words down. Sit with them for a while. Does a phrase emerge? A pattern of thought? In my experinece, I need to visit with the words a few times over a few days. I often don't discern my shadows voice in the first conversation. Give it some time. And sometimes it doesn't make any sense; write it down anyways and come back to it in a few weeks or months. Keep circling back in your shadow journals. Please remember the golden guide of shadow work: be nothing but compassionate with yourself. You instinctively hide things for very wise reasons and this does not mean you are weak or shameful. Neither are the things you hide good or bad. There is no judgement here. Okay? #allaboutthemetta. This is the last prompt of our Shadow Illumination Series. A few times a year I offer a shadow workshop series and it always sells out quickly. These journal prompts have been my way of including others who may not be interested in workshops or who were unable to make the last round of them. I hope you have found them meaningful and I would treasure hearing about your experience with them. You're always welcome to come join one of my workshops as well. In the new year I will be offering personal 1-1 guided shadow journeys. Exciting, right? #illuminatingshadows #shadowillumination #shadowjournalprompts #shadowjournalprompt

 1 year ago
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👉 Shadow Journal Prompt - What do you imagine your shadow looks like? . Part of the process of integrating our shadow selves is giving them a concrete shape that we can comprehend and befriend. Before you craft your form take some time with your shadow journal to conjure up your sense of its substance. Write anything that comes to mind whether or not it makes sense. Making a doll or vessel is one way to give our shadow-self form. Any material could be used to make these and they tend to morph in shape as you work on them. Maybe conceal some pages from you shadow journal inside? Your shadow form can truly be anything and so abstract that only you know it represents your shadow. These are covert creatures. . Here are a few idea: 1) make a soft creature doll with fabric, socks, upcycled clothes 2) knit, crochet, weave, sculpt your form 3) collage or paint a jar, box, other container 4) plant a few seeds or bulb and tend to your shadow 5) get a mug that you only use when visiting with your shadow 6) trace an outline of your body onto paper and fill it in however you see fit 7) designate one mirror in your house as shadow portal And, dear heart, please remember the golden guide of shadow work: be compassionate with yourself. You instinctively hide things for very wise reasons and this does not mean you are weak or shameful. Neither are the things you hide good or bad. There is no judgement here. Okay? #allaboutthemetta #shadowillumination #illuminatingshadows #shadowjournal #shadowjournalprompts #shadowjournalprompt

 1 year ago
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So one year ago for one day I was suicidal. There I said it. It’s a truth that still terrifies me. In this year since I have used that day and become stronger and healthier. That day was my starting point of becoming who I am today. I hate what happened that day. I hate how I felt and behaved and I hate how embarrassed I am about it. This is so hard to talk about because it was my lowest point But I do think it’s extremely important that I share my story. . . #darkness #black #shadows #heartofdarkness #suicide #darknesswithin #postpartum #PPD #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #mylife #lifeasart #reallife #momlife #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #suicideprevention #suicideawareness #depression #notalone #nostigmas #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #SaneSideOut #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 1 year ago
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👉 Shadow Journal Prompt - Stories Thus far, we’ve looked at how judgement shows up and the dreams we defer. Two different aspects of shadow - what we push away and what we pull closer. This journal prompt will explore the stories we tell ourselves because they can show us the shadow characters we know and perhaps contain. What is your favourite folktale? If nothings comes to mind consider visiting your local library and spending some time visiting with all the magnificent children's books. Find one that resonates and invite it to home and play. . Read your chosen story to yourself—out loud if it feels right. Write down all the characters in the story and anything else that winks at you, such as scenery, or phrases, etc. All these things you've noticed are glimpses into parts of yourself. You are the child lost in the woods, you are the mean parent who sent the child out into the dark, you are the cunning witch who lays downs a ridiculous challenge, you are the moss covered trees, you are the brilliant full moon. At the top of a fresh sheet of paper write down one thing from the story that you noted. Let’s go with the child lost in the woods as an example. Have you ever been in this situation? What happened? If you’ve never been in that situation then it is still a rich metaphor - when have you felt lost in the woods? Describe that feeling. How did you feel when you were in the thickets? How did you get out? How does it feel looking back? Do you notice when others are lost in the woods? Do you help? What does that help look like? Or do you leave them to their own devices? Each item is a new journal entry. Consider taking breaks between items perhaps even a day or more. With shadow work a lot of the processing happens while we’re doing other stuff rather than looking directly at it. Introduce the prompt to your mind and then go about your business. You might get some interesting insight. #shadowillumination #illuminatingshadows #shadowjournal #shadowjournalprompts #shadowjournalprompt

 1 year ago
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👉 Shadow Journal Prompt - Judgement This prompt may look familiar, I gave it last week with an image of a collage I’d made of my inner judge, Stella. Oh Stella! She can get quite shrill at times and I do my best to soothe her and listen to what she’s telling me because Stella is me after all and she might actually have some insight. Funny that. I’m reposting this prompt for continuity of Shadow Illumination images. This is not a new prompt, but perhaps in going over it again more will be revealed? Inner journeying is a spiral and we go over things many times before resolution and then we can always go visit again with renewed perspective. Who is your inner judge? How do you know when Judgement has arrived? How do you feel when you notice its arrival? Does it take up a lot of space? Does it get in your way of doing something? Where do you feel Judgement? What senses light up? What senses dim? How does this Judgement feel about other people? Does it judge them too? How do you feel when you are judged by another person? Play around with your judge. Collage an image of what this Judgement looks like to you. Does it have co-conspirators? Who are they? Write a story. Create a comic book. Make some finger puppets. Have a conversation with Judgement. Invite it over for tea and ask it what it want you to know. Take your time and be sure to tell it what you want it to know as well. As we move through this journal writing, remember the golden guide of shadow work: be compassionate to yourself. You instinctively hide things for a very wise reason and this does not mean you are weak or shameful. There is no judgement here. Okay? #allaboutthemetta #shadowillumination #illuminatingshadows #shadowjournal #shadowjournalprompts #shadowjournalprompt

 1 year ago
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Hanging with the OG King B, talking music and beats and projects and potential...#illuminatingshadows

 1 year ago
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I made it. My daughter is a year old today and this is kind of a milestone not just for her but also for me. 6 months ago I didn't know if I was going to be here for her 1st birthday. But here I am. And even more- I'm happy and I can really feel that. There's hope, and light, and strength within me. Happy Birthday to my girl and hurray to me for being me. . . #milestone #happybirthday #feelinggood #depression #postpartum #PPD #thisisme #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #momlife #mylife #findingmyself #hope #alightinthedarkness #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #suicideprevention #hope #depressionawareness #yourstoryisntoveryet #notalone #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 1 year ago
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I haven't abandoned my project....I promise. I have more to say, but like this bee my summer has been very busy. Which has been a good thing. I have spent the summer enjoying my kids, working, and being kind to myself. I'm hoping now that school has started I will be able to find the time to continue to share my journey. Thanks for having understanding and patience. . . #busyasabee #summervacation #feelinggood #depression #postpartum #PPD #simplejoys #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #momlife #mylife #findingmyself #hope #alightinthedarkness #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #suicideprevention #happy #depressionawareness #yourstoryisntoveryet #notalone #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 1 year ago
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 1 year ago
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“Stop measuring days by degree of productivity and start experiencing them by degree of presence.” ―Alan Watts . . . . . . . . . . . 📸::::: Auroraspirits . . . . . . #feathers #palosanto #quartz #sage #love #stillness #meditation #mystic #awaken #universe #breathe #lifeofayogini #shaman #intuitive #simpleasures #wisdom #nature #fengshui #spiritual #radiate #blue #leaf #leather #spirit #wisdom #shadowwalk #innate #transformation #smudge #consciousness #illuminatingshadows

 1 year ago
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I can sense your presence in my heart although you belong to all the world. I wait...with silent passion for one gesture one glance from you. —Rumi ...getting closer now . . . . . . . . 📸::::Permillion44 . . . . #love #stillness #meditation #mystic #awaken #universe #breathe #lifeofayogini #shaman #intuitive #depthandpresence #wisdom #nature #fengshui #plantmedicine #radiate #king #botanical #spread #spirit #wisdom #shadowwalk #innate #transformation #lightanddark #consciousness #illuminatingshadows #flowers #garden #truth #rumi

 1 year ago
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“I have always believed, and I still believe, that whatever good or bad fortune may come our way we can always give it meaning and transform it into something of value." —Siddhartha 🖤 : : : : : : : : : : : : : : #love #stillness #siddhartha #meditation #mystic #awaken #universe #breathe #deep #lifeofayogini #shaman #intuitive #depthandpresence #wisdom #nature #deer #oracle #radiate #awakenedbeing #butterfly #nature #spread #spirit #wisdom #deermedicine #innate #transformation #lightanddark #sage #consciousness #illuminatingshadows

 2 years ago
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 2 years ago
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Life is hard. Sometimes it feels like it will never get better and things will never change. How do we all make it through? How do we battle on when we feel no hope? Tonight I have many worries and questions, but I have no answers... . . #depression #postpartum #PPD #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #mylife #lifeasart #reallife #lifeishard #randomthoughts #questions #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #suicideprevention #anxiety #depressionawareness #depressionsucks #yourstoryisntoveryet #notalone #suicideawareness #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #SaneSideOut #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 2 years ago
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How long can you hold your breath? Thirty seconds? One minute? More? After a little while you long for new air but you can still fight a little longer. But as the seconds go by your brain might start to panic, your lungs start to hurt. How much longer will you fight without air to survive? How long can a person go on when they are in a depressed state? It varies from person to person. Most of the time a person will be able to overcome the pain and despair and finally be able to breathe. Then there are those who don’t. That is a truth about depression. There are those who can never stop the suffocating feeling and breathe in new life. The anxiety, the despair, the failed attempts of redemption just weigh you down and take the breath out of you. The life around you feels heavy and stifling. There is no joy in anything. You wish you were someone else because being who you are is smothering you. Your emotions are drowning you with your own tears. Even the good things are being forced down your throat. The sun is shining so you had better be happy about it. You can’t breathe….you just can’t breathe. So how long could you hold your breath? How long could you fight for air? How long could you survive? . . #holdyourbreath #suffocation #helpme #postpartum #PPD #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #mylife #lifeasart #reallife #fighting #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #momlife #suicide #suicideawareness #gaspingforair #depression #saveme #notalone #despair #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #SaneSideOut #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 2 years ago
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Crying when you are depressed is different than crying when you are sad. When you are sad there is often a tangible reason for your tears. When you are depressed you may have no idea why you feel the need to simply weep. I did cry when I was sad. I cried when I was worried. I cried when I thought about all of hurt I had in my heart. I cried because I felt like an awful mom. I cried because I thought my husband didn’t love me. I cried because my kitchen was full of dishes and my living room had toys all over the floor. I cried because I was crying. Your tears spill out but no one sees them. I found myself often just wailing alone. While the girls were at school I would just cry in front of my baby. While I my husband was sleeping next to me at night I would scream silently at the ceiling with my pillow wet from the tears. In the shower my pain was indistinguishable from the water running on my face. You cry until you can’t breathe. You cry until your head splits open from throbbing pain. You cry until your face is covered in tears, and snot, and spit. You cry until you can’t cry anymore. #crying #tears #emotional #pain #despair #alone #postpartum #PPD #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #mylife #lifeasart #reallife #momlife #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #suicideprevention #suicideawareness #depression #notalone #nostigmas #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #SaneSideOut #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 2 years ago
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I felt broken. Why wouldn’t I get better? I was supposed to be happy now. I began thinking that maybe I was too far gone. My mind and heart had been shattered beyond repair. Every part of me felt cracked. My heart was broken in every way possible. I thought my marriage was failing, my children were scared of me, I hated myself. It may have started like a pebble in a windshield. A little crack as you drive down life’s road. But the long months through the bumps and storms had turned the once small chip into a spiderweb of broken glass. I was emotionally shattered. #broken #brokeninside #shattered #reflection #cracked #fixme #postpartum #PPD #postpartumdepression #YouAreNotAlone #mylife #lifeasart #reallife #momlife #StopTheStigma #IlluminatingShadows #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #suicideprevention #suicideawareness #depression #notalone #nostigmas #breakthesilence #stigmafighter #support #endthestigma #breakthestigma #SaneSideOut #BeTheChange @kenni.nikki

 2 years ago