The first time I saw your story I, I had to sit in silence for quite some time. Because there was this person on screen, all gunshots and dhamakas on the surface and quietly asking for azadi inside. Azadi from heart break, azadi from grief, azadi from life itself. And I have never related to a character more.
I believe true love only happens by chance. If you look for it, you'll never find it. Love is awara. Love has a mind of its own. You don't find it, it finds you. Like Aliya found you at that market. What were the chances? Among hundreds she found you. Because love is too much like God.
Like my English professor once said, every beautiful love story is a tragedy in disguise, you just gotta wait till the end. So I did. I knew if faith can reunite two souls it has the power to divide them too. When it did it broke my heart. Because it reminded me of a past where I had to let go of someone i loved too early. Past is like an open wound, isn't it Shivam? No matter what you do, it never stops hurting.This is to say I don't blame you for trying to dig up her grave, to see her face one last time. Because I know how that feels. The space in between your fingers feels a lot like an empty house where their hand used to be. This is to say I don't blame you for turning your back on religion. I did the same too. And till date, I haven't had the courage to turn back and look faith in the face.
But I'm happy for you too, you know. You were brave enough to do what I still can't. The first thing Aliya ever said to you was - kisiko azadi dilane se jyaada sukoon aur kahin nahi hai. You held onto that with all your might and reunited two lovers at the cost of your own life. Even though I don't believe in God anymore I hope Aliya's last wish came true. I hope there's a heaven where you two are reunited again. I hope azadi found you. I hope you're in love again.
✍️ - @barelyswati