✨”Existence in purity I”, oil on board, 2007✨I am cleaning my studio and came across some of my favorite pieces at the time of creation...! It’s interesting to look at my older art. I don’t connect to any of my art in the same way as I did during the creation. During my art making, I am completely empty and I just become a ball of light connecting to the creative energy, so looking at my own art when I am back to the normal state is a different dimension of experience. My art becomes a totally different entity from my higher state once it’s done. I look at it as a totally separate being from myself. I can not explain it well, but it’s similar to giving a birth to a human in a way! While a baby is inside you, the baby is you or at least a part of you, but once the baby is complete and born to be an individual self standing, the baby doesn’t belong to you. Same for my art. I can look at my own art as fascinated as if it was made by some other artists! For some of the art I made, I even get so touched that I can cry or I don’t connect with the content in that moment and feel indifferent to it! I explained this to my husband and he was lost...! 😝Oh well, I tried 😜! I am lost too on how to explain it with words. 🤣. After all, art needs no words. Only if I can be out of my ordinary state and reach higher state of energy, the clarity of receiving and transmitting energy, can I connect to all my art in deeper level, but in my everyday life, I am not there yet. Only when I am making art or after meditation 🧘🏻♀️!